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Suicide is the work thy Cowards... fight back sans weapon is the work thy Rushali !

You see I was wondering how madly we love to hear what our friends have in store for us to tell. Seriously I never felt this before until I went to have jamboree time with my friends a day before. I had not meet them since long and i always had thought how much fun they engage in without my participation mainly because of my mother’s stringent attitude towards staying late at night and partially ’cause of  geographical distances. Anyways back to topic.. I can’t tell you how incessantly I love my friends speak.

It was such cute incidence when everyone else sans me was boozed in alcohol and laid down on bed at their comfort with the puppies frolicking around. It feels awesomely good to hear things you have always thought cute and sensible.  Of the friends there’s a couple who shared how they met each others folks and how they had their conversation about the nearby future. There’s so much to disclose but blog is not the right place to unwind such crushers. This shots are to be kept enshrouded until confided in the right one.

Anyways !! This is for my frineds..that sweethearts I love when you all speak..( of course not simultaneously) ! I love it when you crack those silly cracking PJ’s that has sense ( otherwise) .. Love it even more when everyone intellectually thinks about the inspiration  causing agent behind the successive outcome!! I hate your potty-full talks..shit (I hate myself for saying this)!

Just keep on talking guys  ..don’t restrict it to tittle-tattles but to long unending conversations where in I get to explore your imagination and the extent to which you can dig into any matter. If its boozing effect then let be it that way.. !! Love the way u all turn sentimental .. Love the dumbness and smart one liners..and aaah..those hoicking body language that speaks VOLUME !!!

But yeah for the exceptions.. who has moonier talk to unlax …PLEASE CHOOSE NOT ME !! I hate senseless loving talks that you have with your partner !! Keep it to yourself if you don’t aim to keep my learnings-avoid.

So guys…talk on… !!

A big hug to all.. !!

Rushali

Been quite long since i updated anything in this field. It's like it's been almost nt even half dozen of year (:P) since I started swimming into this stream called SEO and dunno what but few blog read made me feel i have sky to catch..learning seemed to have stopped at times..and i see wholesome sea to dive into.

Need to roll in with SMO and PPC ! What keeps me calm is the confidence in me to learn all of these within no time. Read  somewhere over GOOGLE that SEO is a type of  web development to which i definitely agree but that just made me ponder why havn't I started learning "how to make a website" ? huh... Aargh !! 

Anyways.. It makes me feel delight to make myself understand what else i have learnt at pragmites..!! Recalls the days when i ws budging with blogs and forums. I thought I m hopelessly caught in wrong business until i ws moved into new team. Hurray ! I never wanted to get into this one but I knew if i had to learn new i'll have to keep my feet moving towards hell.

Web2.0's, Social bookmark blue print, Social bookmarks, updates, profiles..Link wheels ..ooh lala.. 

What i enjoyed making most is LINK WHEEL !! For software always generates some error.. and it takes hell to dig into which link went where.. phew !!

I don't mind spending minutes desinging the best possible web page through web 2.0's but sadly the number of clients that my team deals with do not permit me give much time to designing and since LFE has arrived i hardly need to bother.

I am overwhelmed and amazed to see how LInk wheel makes wonder to websites. WOW !! 

I know i have a lazy butt but still i manage to read few online tutorials on web CEO And market samurai. I see my colleague working on it making reports ...who goes mad..insane and berserk while watching the ratings go up and down. 

Cant wait to get into on page optimization..SMO and planning.. !!!

It hurts to see people not loving for what you are but what they expect you to be like.. It’s what they think you could be like.. its what they had always imagined you to be like.. !! It hurts further deeper when endeavor to make them impress goes unnoticed.

Aargh !! Feels DEJECTED  to learn things you just did went unappreciated.
I wonder on my comradeship  with you and wonder more on your presence in my life irrespective of my clumsyness or to be more frank ..for being a fashion disaster.. !!! Damn !! Sometimes i hate you more than how much i loved you once.

Had no idea that you would come into my realm and produce so many cute and serene memories.. 

Been in love umpteen times but never was so unconditional as it was for you..!! 

I remember i was packing my luggage ..I had to act sapient in order not to miss anything that was needed for my bhau's ceremony..  ..when you were playing all around me just in mood to play around..rollick around.. not making any nuisance and all I could do was speak with you.. And i noticed you sweetto.. I noticed you.. !!  I wish i had embraced you then.. I wish i had cuddled you enough not to let go off me anywhere.. !!   

I toh didn't even say you bye while on my way to station.. was too hurried to take ur glance.. Thought i toh would meet you very soon at nagpur..!! Damn !!!! Damn !! 

Was broken into pieces when i heard you were no more.. ! I could see how you had been through..  I wish i could take all that pain If i wish..I could.. !! I can feel that cowardly moment when i was laughing in my comfort zone.. thinking what not.. and you were taking your last breaths far away from me.. !!! I know.. you must have called me.. but  i couldn hear you..perhaps i was too aloud in my space to let in any voices in my ears.. !!  

Like vicky told me how it happened to you..i can feel that hunger of yours to breath.. need to live.. need to understand what you said..  I have nothing to say...but this is just to tell you that i realize.. I realize it was my mistake..   

Babdu..That doctor didn inform me that it was not safe to travel for you.. that jerk didn tell me.. otherwis i wouldn have dared take you from here.. !!! 

I am sorry... Sorry... My ignorance caused you death... !!!!! I still recall..how my dad had his grave expression when.. he told.. how he embraced you when you were striving to breath ... I could see what trauma your death brought in our family... !! 

What tortures me the fact that.. I couldn reach out to help you.. !! Mere thought asphyxiates me..  Sorry is such a small word.. Babdu.. I know " I AM RESPONSIBLE"..  for whatever happened.. Please forgive me... !!   I still feel the warmth your fur caused to my fingers.. I still remembers those twinkling red eyes.. running outrageously for methi.. !! I remmber the dramepana that you did in kitchen .. How you jumped in the garden testing your limits.. how you legs used to slip on marbel.. how you used to frighten in lift.. HOw you used to come over my bed and pee.. i remmbr... YOU... !!  

Chotu.. If possible.. come ..alive.. in my realm.. once again.. and I promise.. I wont let you down.. !!! I PROMISE !!! or when I die.. I PRAY to that almighty (if exists) to lay my grave beside you.. And then ..i'll shower all the love i couldn in this life.. !! 

Daily animal count in my life..
 

Camel  15+ (down-hill accompanied by goats)

Goats    6+ (down-hill ) 

Dogs    10+ (some sleeepin in middle of road.. few.. barkin.. and few...          stranded )

Swines  3+ (mostly accompanied.:P)

Sparrow 4  (flappin there wings)

Horses   3+ (mostly .crossing road.. on camp side..)

Crow     1  (heard never seen)

Cats      3  (below office buildin.. Now they come runnin when i say miow...)         Love those kittens.

Elephant  @KP .. Seasonal

Pigeon  1   (outside bathroom window) 

(this makes a beautiful ride to my workplace.. I ignore the human beings n concentrate on these animals... Its pretty cool and intriguing to observe them.. Worth reckin n deemin it aloud)

Rushali Ramteke,
http://noetic-ingenuity.blogspot.com/
http://rushali.posterous.com/

Four directions emanates from my brain-stem, boundaries unknown. Unaware of where do they land or if they could concur except for their origin cognized that’s  me. They start from me yet, and yet they lose hold of me. I try to look, beyond 

my vision, and I see them smudged in rains, some at their yield point almost broken and at plasticity, some refraining to even come backwards to have  a word ,some beclouded by my own virtue, desires and slants.  

I try to make amends between all four but then they are recalcitrant and they have this shield protect like sun control cream having PH value that I cannot plow. How does it feel when someone you belong turns you off? Know what ?? Know what ?? I know exactly how it feels. My thoughts disown me sheer seconds after they uprose.                  

No sooner do I tend to take off, some 

unwelcomed directions land in to sabotage my fears of thoughts. And they come from my very own siblings trying to find DIRECTION for my life. Now, None,  None of these, none of these concur. Nor do I wish to make them meet, intrude or intervene.  

My life is managed by my editing tools sans an Undo. I make it bright , I make it colorless. I crop it if I wish to. I would !! I want my smart layer held fast. I filter it. I have its curve.

One fine day these directions shall meet 

with discernment. I don’t know when, where and how but I am working on it. Am I?? kidding am i? and when they shall, THE DAY WILL BE MINE ! Even if they do not, mere thought is plenty to keep myself stable. 

http://ingenuousrush.wordpress.com/

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Notes from gmail :

UMM:                :)

6:08 PM             i missed u the whole day

 HMM:              :(

 UMM:              .... i was like when this internet will work

                        and all

6:09 PM             its a good feeling to miss someone

                        somwhere when u get back in touch u feel so good..